Corpoboring

Two years ago I left corporate.  For a reason. And lo and behold in 2016 I find positions that I believe are great investments towards my career as a fashion bomb.But ofcourse as usual I want it on my terms...kikiki in a world that operates opposite to me! I am that crazy yes.  So I went to two interviews excited with doing this again and also already dreaming about my next project in the fashion journey.
At the first interview I was totally psyched.  I couldn't believe I was there for a position. It is a big fashion home. I will not divulge the name because I am still holding my big toes that somehow they make a mistake and call me back.  So the interview was great. According to me ofcourse. Then again I"m good with conversations, so much I forget why I am having the conversation and with who I am doing it.  Therefore, telling too much and relaxing too much.   Which is probably the case here.
The second interview was just hilarious.  As in I laughed through it all.  The interviewer was simply just unaware and not interested in me.  From the moment he walked in with me.  He was just not interested.  I found this simply entertaining.  Mostly because he kept trying to find questions to ask me.  To fill the air.  Like I am unable to fill it.  And for some reason it was as if I was there as a heart surgeon and being interviewed for a neurology position.  It lasted 15 minutes including walking to my car.  While laughing.
The point of this post is at both interviews I was told I am simply too creative.  Which I cannot deny. But found amazing.  You see for someone like me who has to create everyday, I didn't realize how creative I am.  I just take it as part of who I am, and somehow I expect it not to be a 'thing'.  Am I making sense?  Like Sheldon (from Big Bang Theory) really thinks we all know science like he does. He knows he's intelligent but he expects those around him to be the same.  And also value that fact.  Well hmmm not really.  Apparently you can loose a position because you are too creative.
I am sure it starts with my entire dress code.  The hairstyle is a problem. To them. Then I am always looking smart formal in a creative way.  I do not own a black suit of any sort, or a grey one or even a white one.  Or anything corporate looking.  I know this because it takes me an hour to dress for an interview, and 5 minutes to dress for Roka Roko.  Then they ask, 'what do you do?', and I say 'I am a fashion designer'.  Apparently it sound like ' I am a creative person'.
I am not necessarily complaining.  I am surprised I am here.  When I left corporate I was empty.  Finished.  I couldn't even imagine a dress by simply looking at flowers.  I was so depleted of creativity I struggled for 6 months to do anything different, I thanked God print was in. All I had to do is manipulate the prints and voila.  Today I can imagine how to manipulate the actual pattern to make newness.  I have regained my creativity.  And apparently its illegal in the world of corporate.  Sigh.
So I shall wait and see which area in corporate can allow me to flourish on my own terms.  Which by the way say I go to work on a Monday, Wednesday and Friday only.  I start at 9am and end at 3pm? NO. Asking for too much?  Well someone said if you think it, meditate on it and write it down, it has 96% chance of actually happening!  So lets see.  But then again...I just might create this position myself, for myself :)

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